So, after the past 3 weeks of patiently waiting to hear from the Insight Fellowship, I heard today that I am invited to the 2 day (or maybe 1.5 day, it’s not clear yet to me) Selection Day in DC! I have been feeling acutely worthless over the past few weeks. Sometimes it feels like my dreams and qualifications don’t make me appear to be anything special. Especially when you are waiting patiently for an adjudication process like this one to complete itself. Next steps: Book travel plans, check on start and end times, and continue doing more research in preparation.
I also had my phone screening with JOI today, as well. I chatted with Catharine Bell about the program and told her my story and what has brought me to being interested in social justice. In talking with her, I came to realize that I have a strong interest in the areas that are personally and emotionally closest to me. I am sure this is an asset in most settings, but if I want to be a fully effective social justice activist, I need to find ways and skills to connect to issues which do not directly affect me. Especially if I am going to be matched at an organization which is not Jewishly or queer related. I feel like this is what I am trying to say: “Sometimes we don’t get to choose the change we make, sometimes the change chooses us.”
In other news: My parents are in Israel right now, and I am super jealous! More to come later…
